Holiday Stagnation

It's the 6th of January, 2025, and I'm wasting away my time.

Precious time, I tell you. It's the school holidays. I should be having the time of my life, but instead, I've been sleeping late, procrastinating, going on aimless trips, and overall being more isolated than ever.

I know I sound like a fucking whiny teenager, but really, it just fucking sucks. I have some type of sleeping disorder, and the hospital hasn't even called to get me in on an appointment. This is the age of stagnation. The boring slumber before the real shocks begin--when school reopens in 20ish days.

Now I'm in a pretty inebriated state from tiredness, but I'll try and tell you some more about how I ended up having my holidays wasted.

My parents, well really I should just say my mum, since my dad doesn't live with us, went off for the yearly trip to Thailand, which is where my family's from. A trip that lasts 6 weeks--far from a holiday, it's more like an exile.

Well, she gave me a choice, stay here in Brisbane with my grandma, or go overseas with her. The last trip to Thailand was a shitshow, so I chose to stay here.

Well, I made the wrong choice. Everyone was fucking busy with their own shit, with 'family Christmas', all that lovey dovey stupid shit. A bunch of people went overseas, many to Japan, as that's where Westerners love to go.

I had 1 'friend' during the start of the holidays, though I didn't really want to consider him a friend. He kinda rubbed off in the wrong way, and did a bunch of stupid that was fucking hilarious.

He had ChatGPT write a song, and he tried to pass it off as his own. He thinks being a right wing conservative is cool and 'punk', he also thinks slurs and insults are cool and actually do a bunch of shit.

Spoiler alert: they make you look funny as fuck. I had to dump that guy mainly because I was sick of the bullshit, he was getting on my nerves, and really 'hanging out' with him felt more like a chore than anything, especially because he liked to bullshit that he was busy, then would post about some trip or some other shit he decided to do instead. He was just a chronic liar who does shit to try and save face.

Now I know it's not really right to talk about other people, but whatever. I'm in a bad state right now. But yeah, after I left him he posted a funny as rant with tons of slurs, and posted some funny story on his Instagram in an attempt to save face, acting all nice when mentioning people that he talked shit about.

So yeah, I don't really have any friends. Well, if you ask people, some of them would say they're my friend, but really they're not. I barely interact with them. They never text me first. Whenever I text them it doesn't lead anywhere. I didn't get to know any of these people naturally. Honestly, they're all online, and